Tuesday, January 15, 2008

I'm done now.

Warning: this post contains graphic content.

Turns out, I had an allergic reaction to.......something.
The doc wan't sure what happened to my face, but called it scaly.
Cool.
It still covers well with makeup, so I'm not too stressed about it, plus it's a lot better today and I'm not nearly so itchy. Yay!

Between you and me, I've been really down in the dumps since Saturday. I just couldn't put my finger on what was bothering me.
I couldn't put my finger on it, but I kept having visions of you-know-what's ripping open, and birthing squished up, blue infants that come out screaming and never stop until the day. they. die.
Rich and I talked about it last night and I have come to a conclusion:
Yeah, I don't want to do that.

I suspect that I have had an allergic reaction to giving birth.

7 comments:

angie said...

oh erin, i wish i could console you, but since i haven't been there, i'm afraid i'm not much use. but remember what alison told us? "giving birth really is not that bad. it's the breast feeding that's painful."
does that help?

Cara said...

It's amazing to see the connection between your mind and your physical health. I see it all the time. I am glad that you are okay though. If you want to hear about a perfect birth (which you NEVER hear because it's not as enticing as a birth gone wrong), I will share my story!

Love ya!

Naomi said...

I don't even know what to say exactly... I cannot for a minute lie and say child birth isnt that bad. I could tell you that the minute you see your baby for the first time, all that painful labor will suddenly be worth it. But that honestly wont help you until AFTER the labor. All I can do is offer myself to you as a friend you can lean on and vent to whenever you need it. I will help you with anything you need, and keep you in my prayers. The end is near, and I am rooting you on. Soon the huge burden of childbirth will be over and you will be left with the best gift you have ever been given (shy of Jesus himself).

Anonymous said...

That's why I never went to childbirth classes. Labor and delivery are not pleasant, but I do believe there are worse things that your body may go through (e.g. some sort of surgery) now that they offer such wonderful labor options as drugs and epidurals. Don't worry too much about it because whatever happens will happen. Just try to be at the hospital with more than enough time for that epidural. :o)

For the ripping concerns, my best advice, having delivered three babies naturally, is to talk to your doctor about pushing strategy. My first two were delivered by male doctors who went with the 10-second push, breathe and do it again. I didn't tear or need an episiotomy with the 1st, but I was only 18 - sure that had something to do with it; I had an episiotomy and 6 stitches with the 2nd. This time, my doctor was a woman who used a bottle of oil, massaged the area, and had me push him out little at a time - no rips, cuts or stitches and he was the biggest of the 3 at 8lbs. 2 oz.

And it is worth whatever you go through once it's done.

Carla said...

All is well, Erin. Take your thoughts captive. I am praying that Jesus has prepared the way for that babe and you will be awesome! I am sorry for the "birthing horror stories" you have heard. Those are NOT to be treasured up in your heart.

kristi noser said...

Thank you Naomi. A shining "truth light" in Erin's dark day.
She's absolutely right--all worth it when you see that little guy's face. Yeah, I'm holding on to the boy guess, no matter what Mr. Whatever says.

Jolene said...

Like most things in life, it's too overwhelming if you try to think of it all at once. Unfortunately your class didn't really give you an alternative.

Amazingly, the strength and courage you need to get through each stage will be there when you need it.

With that said - it's an amazing experience. I would totally do it all again...except 4 kids seems to be enough. You know, that whole screaming thing ;) I'M KIDDING!

I wish you peace...